I have had the weirdest dreams lately. Two nights ago, I dreamed I was at my childhood home. My dad, mom, and grandmother were there. I sat by my dad, and we were having good conversation. Then I was talking to my mom, and I felt so relieved that we were talking to my dad, that they could see him, too, that he was alive. I asked, "So you can see him, too?" And she said she couldn't. It was all my imagination! I cried and cried. I think this dream stems from my inability to accept my father's death. I mean, I know he passed away over 10 years ago, but I never went through all of the stages of grief. I am still in denial in my heart. I made it through them in my head, but my heart just cannot accept it.
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On a completely different note, I was drying my hair the other day and I bent over to dry underneath, and I glanced in the floor length mirror and was appalled! A woman of 50 should never look at herself upside down in a mirror. Things look hideous from that angle.
By the time you read this, I'll be on my one and only vacation this summer. Well, I think it's my only vacation. Who knows? But, I'm about to board a plane for Las Vegas. My husband is already there at a convention for work, so the hotel is covered. The flight was covered with "miles." That's my kind of vacation!
Today's Coffee Chat topic is interesting. Our hostess asks...
What would you do differently, if you knew no one would judge you?
That's a tough one! I honestly have no regrets. Of course, I've made mistakes in my life, but I learned from them. They served a purpose. I am where I am supposed to be, doing what I'm supposed to be doing. Maybe I would have been more independent instead of trying to fit in. Maybe I would not have been so anxious to find love. Perhaps I would have kept my mouth shut when I didn't, or maybe I would have spoken up when I kept quiet. But really, I believe everything happens for a reason, so even if I could do something differently, I doubt that I would.
Have a great week!